There's a saying that goes "A Mother's job has no end" and it's true. Being a mother myself, the hardships that you'll have to go through motherhood is endless. There are times that you get frustrated about things and you feel like there's nobody who could help you with it. That's how hard it is but on the other side of it, there's that unexplainable joy that you feel every time you hear your baby's laughter. 

Never had I thought I'd become a mother. When I was little, I used to be this stubborn kid who doesn't even listen to what my mom says. There were times when my mom would call me for lunch or dinner and I am still outside playing with my friends. Even though I know that she was calling for me but I was playing deaf as if I didn't hear her loudly yelling for my name. My friends would even sometimes push me in our house so that my mom wouldn't get mad at them too. A lot of times, I could tell that my mom was getting tired of our stubbornness. There were times at night that she'd cry  in silence. Back then, I didn't have any idea how hard it is to raise kids. It took me a long time to realize that my mom had suffered and given up a lot just for us. Then, I got pregnant and gave birth to Eben. 

As a first time mother, I felt helpless even though my husband was always there to help me out. Sometimes I wake up in a nightmare. I was clueless as to why I am more afraid to get hurt now than before. I was always afraid about my child getting sick and this and that... Then finally, I got to talk to my mom and asked her questions about motherhood. She assured me that everything I felt was normal and that one day soon I will get over it and yes I did. My journey through motherhood became easy and I felt good about finally having my own child to cuddle and play with.

This experience made me appreciate my mom even more. This also helped me realize that you wouldn't know how hard it is to be a mother until you become one. 

English is the second language spoken in the Philippines but I know a lot of people who are not fluent with it including myself. This has always been my problem eversince and my everyday living here in America is like a stepping stone to my improvements. I believe that I have improved a little bit already though. Most Americans here that I met now can already understand what I'm talking about compared to when I first got here where almost everybody keep telling me to repeat everything I say because they can barely understand a word that comes from me. 

Everytime we go to the Philippines, I am always the translator because there's nobody in my family who speaks English even my sister who is a high school graduate and my brother. They can understand the language but they are too bashful to even say a word. So, I always end up being the translator because my husband doesn't know any filipino either. Once in a while I teach him some words but most of the time he only remembers the words that are kinda explicit:). I wonder if it's always that way with people trying to learn a different language. They only remember something that they can't even use verbally in their everyday lives but rather mentally. 

I know that I have a lot of grammar errors and typos in my posts here on my blog but nobody's perfect you know. At least, I am doing my best. I have told a friend once that writing is not just all about perfecting the grammars in a story. It doesn't even have to be a perfect story as long as the readers could understand and get what you are writing about because in this bloggers world, perfect literacy is not necessary.

Yesterday, we took a trip to Denver just to get out of the house because we have been stuck in our house lately. The weather hasn't been nice this past few weeks so when finally it started getting sunny outside, we took advantage of it. We drove down to Denver and visit the Denver Museum of Nature and Science. It was Eben's first time in a Museum too. 

Denver Museum is just like any other museum that I've been to although it's a little bigger but everything is just the same. Having said that, we enjoyed it a lot especially looking at Eben's reactions to these stuffed  animals. Also, the weather was really nice so it's really worth going out of the house to take a break being stuck in it.

I also feel so blessed these days because I met a couple of friends. The first one is a girl who is still in the Philippines but is already on her way here in the US. I met her on the internet and I am excited to meet her in person when she gets here. The other girl is from Denver Colorado. Like most of my friends, she's also married to an American guy. They were nice people and I hope that we'll get together again one day. 

When you are in this foreign country, it's always nice to meet people from your own country so you won't have to feel homesick. Although, I am and will always be happy with my husband and my  baby and my husband's family around but I guess it would still be different when you got friends to talk to using your own language. I do have friends here in the US but they live in different states and we just kinda communicate with each other once in a while and mostly just on facebook. Speaking of my husband's family, they are so great because they're all so nice to me and I love them so much. 

Earlier today when I woke up, I turned the TV on and there's this infomercial all about staying fit. I thought I needed to check on my weight because I noticed that I am gaining some weight already probably from our vacation. You know when you're on vacation right? Sky's the limit, especially when it talks about food. Well, I did really eat a lot when we were in the Philippines and I just kept telling myself that time that I will make up to it when I get home because that's vacation and even if I gain some weight, it wouldn't be that bad because the vacation was only three weeks. 

After watching that infomercial, I went to the bathroom and weighed myself on our scale. It wasn't bad. I only gained 4 pounds. It's not bad at all except that I have this weight limit of a hundred pounds so, I am now motivated to lose the extra 4 pounds and hopefully it won't take days or months or worse, gain another extra pounds instead.

So, I figured out a way to lose that extra pounds I gained by finally using our X-box 360's Dance Dance Revolution that my husband bought last year for me. I use it once in a while but never really used it on a daily basis which I should do if I wanna get my 100 pounds body weight back. The game is fun from the beginning to end and it really make you sweat a lot. There is also one feature there where you can set it on an exercise mode. You just input your vital stats before the music starts and once you're done doing the game, it shows how much calories you lose. 

Pretty easy. If you just have to drag yourself into exercising, might as well do some stuffs that's fun and worth all the work. At least even if you don't lose that much weight, but the fact that you had fun is enough.

Before we moved here in Colorado from South Carolina, one of the things that my husband talked me into moving here is the really great seasons in Colorado especially the spring. When we were still in South Carolina, we handled all the seasons really well including the allergy season which is the spring. But now, after we got back home from our Philippines vacation, all of us were welcomed by a bad allergy and worse is that we were all bedridden for days. I never had any allergies before until we moved here. 

It was Tuesday when we all went to Walmart to get groceries. On our way there, we could already see lots of pollens on the windshields but we ignored it because we never thought that those were the kind of pollens our body would react to. Inside the store my husband could already feel the allergic reaction when he started sneezing and his eyes were red. He took an allergy medicine at the store but it didn't really help a lot. On our way home, my nose was running . My eyes was also teary and I had a headache. I could see my baby at the back experiencing the same thing, so we hurriedly drove back home before anything else  happen because they said that allergies could get bad and I was more afraid for my husband  because he's the one who seemed to have a really bad allergy and he's the one who was driving the car since I can't drive yet. 

When we got home, I checked the pollen status in our area and guess what,  the pollen that time was high. It said that the pollen will stay on high until Saturday and it was Tuesday. So the next days, we were just home bedridden and bored. We wanted to go out but we couldn't because of this whole pollen situation. So, I thought the season is worst than a bad winter. This is not the spring that I looked forward to. Hopefully it gets better or it'll be a bad first spring experience for us here in Colorado.